Worship Post #2

As part of my deal from yesterday, i promised to write a post for Miss Angelica every day so that She would consider keeping me as a slave. i will try my best to write these posts so that they are worthy of Her time.

So, this is day 23 of my 100 days of denial. My first 22 days were actually a lot more tolerable than today for some reason but this makes sense because i held my edge for Her for almost an eternity yesterday. i got up this morning with a raging hard on and on most other days, i would look for some new porn videos and start masturbating but today, today was different.

i had images of Her feet in my mind and it seemed as if Her feet commanded me to start stroking my cock. It took me less than a minute to get to the edge, while fantasizing the nastiest foot scenes ever. And remember, i'm not even a 100% foot fetish person. Somehow, the attention She gives me is gradually making me more and more of a foot lover.

i imagined that She was walking on some path but this path was no ordinary path. It was not made out of any conventional material but of Her foot slaves. Her foot slaves would lie down in a path to Her destination such that one's feet would touch another's head. She would then walk on this path of slaves to anywhere she wanted. She would walk barefoot and the slaves would love it if Her feet happened to touch their faces because this was the only way they could get close to her perfect feet. And after she stepped over a slave, he would then have to run all the way in front of this slave path so that She would not have to step on the filthy ground. i imagined i was one of those slaves; needless to say, i was on the edge almost instantly and had to take many deep breaths before i could stop masturbating.

i'm so horny and desperate for Her attention. i know i don't deserve any of Her attention but i hope She will be kind and merciful towards me today and allow me to serve Her.

June 7

i don't really know what i got myself into. Miss Angelica was playing with me today and She showed how much control She had over me.. Never have i felt so powerless..

First, She wanted to know my real email address. However, public humiliation was one of my limits, so i disagreed and disappointed Her greatly. Then i found myself begging Her not to block me. i said that i would make one post worshiping Her everyday and... That "and..." was certainly most costly, i could not think of anything else and even offered to give Her the orgasm that i was saving up for my girlfriend. In hindsight, it was foolish to make such a proposition, i had already given Her my orgasms, so that bargaining chip was already off the table. i feel so troubled now, i don't know what should i tell my girlfriend..

Then, She came up with the most evil idea ever. She wanted me to find pictures of feet that were more perfect than Hers or else She would block me. What was i supposed to do? If i found feet more perfect, i knew She would get mad at me but if i didn't, She would block me forever and not share any more of Her divine feet with this lowly slave. i could not allow that to happen and did as instructed.

After one hour of searching, i found pictures of feet on magazine covers that looked very good, but only because they were photoshopped. i shared these pictures with Her and that was a terrible decision. She teased me by telling me that She had many new pictures of Her feet, even one of a footjob. Needless to say, i was extremely aroused and started to beg for those new pictures.

But She argued that since i had found other pictures, i would not be interested in Her new pictures. She was right and i was coerced into saying that "i did not want any of Her new pictures because i had found better feet". Saying that three times for three extremely hot sounding pictures made me cry. i was crying in frustration that there was some lucky slave out there cumming again and again for Her pictures, yet there i was holding an edge while staring at some magazine covers. i felt so frustrated and so powerless. She had taken control of me.

She then very generously shared some pictures of Her feet with me and that drove me crazy with lust. i was stroking like a madman and barely being able to hold my edge until we talked about my day of release. i was on day 22 and was thinking of not going for more than 30 days of denial but She wanted me to hold it even longer for Her. I wanted to please Her and even agreed to a 100 days of denial. That would be June 7th!! almost another 3 months from now!

I thanked Her for giving me release on June 7th but no, June 7th was not my release date. It was a chance for release. I don't know how am i going to last another 78 days without an orgasm but i am going to try my very hardest to please Her. And as i say this, there is sticky precum all over my cock and i am as frustrated as ever...

Feet.

So, somehow, i have managed to fight off the urge to cum. So that brings me to 20 days without release. Interestingly, i felt like i was still in control of myself until today...

Miss Angelica decided to play with me for a little while today after learning that i have not had release in such a long time. She wanted to tease me to increase my torment; i was feeling confident because i've been keeping my horny-ness in check recently, so i took on Her challenge.

Pretty terrible idea. Miss Angelica gave me some pictures of Her feet and i was instantly hard. Just to clarify things here, i have never really had a ridiculously strong foot fetish but today i was overcome by Her beautiful feet. The first image was Her feet in this pair of 5 inch stilettos. Her calves were slender and Her feet looked strong (pardon my poor choice of an adjective here). They were the epitome of perfection and before i knew it, i was rock hard and on the edge.

Under Her instructions, i held the edge until further commands. She then gave me another 2 more images of Her feet and ordered me to lick the image on my screen while holding my edge, which in my heightened state of arousal, i gladly obeyed. Again, i emphasize that i'm not some foot fetish maniac here but Her feet had some kind of power over me that i ended up obeying Her. i could barely hold my spermies in any more but the more i held the edge, the more i needed pictures of Her perfect feet. i begged Her for more pictures but also mentioned that i couldn't hold the edge for very much longer. i think She was a little disappointed and told me to stop edging and said that W/we would speak again tomorrow. 

i took many, many deep breaths; convinced myself not to "accidentally" go over the edge and went on with my Saturday night... 

Back from the stresses of real life..

Phew.. Done with most of my RL work! And i can gradually revert back to being kimmy again! Yay!

i did as i promised, i did not cum and so the denial goes on..

Last real man cummy: 2/27 (18 days!!)
Last sissy cummy: 3/1 (16 days)

i guess it isn't THAT impressive but im still pretty happy with my self control recently. i wonder how will my next cummy feel like; perhaps i would experience orgasm for 5 whole minutes! *giggles and gets aroused at the thought of cumming*

And the reason why this post is about cumming is because Lady Anne gets to cum today! ballsfull (finally) rolled Her number, which means that i might be able to make a cummy for Her if i kneel and beg Her like a good little princess. i probably should start practising begging right now..

"please can i make a sissy cummy.. my wittle cummy makers are so full right now that little sissy spermies are flowing in my blood!"

"i promise i'll be a good little girl for You. i'll wear panties all day, every day for You"

*giggles* i think i need to think of better pleas than those..

Short break!

Going to take a short break from kimmy...

But still saving the cummy for a special day..

Sexy sissy kimmy every night?

Last night was rather interesting. i got home pretty late from work and didn't see any activity in the milovana chatroom. i was pretty tired so i figured that i would just slip back into my silky thong, do my 7 edges and get some rest for the next day.

Just an aside, i don't know if i can handle sleeping in the silky thong for sustained periods of time just because they make me feel so aroused. And what do you know, as im typing this in my silk panties and bra, my clitty got so hard that it peeked out through the top of my panties. *blushes* Would i eventually get used to how sexy they feel? Or would i have to fight my raging hard ons every time i put them on? (i must say, it is a huge losing battle, my silky thong is way more powerful than i am)

Back to the story, i got out of my nasty boy clothes, threw on a comfy shirt and my silky thong and headed to bed. i had to do my seven edges but tonight i wanted to try something new. Typically, since i was new to clitty rubbing, to get a little more stimulation, i would watch some straight pornography, imagine that i was the female pornstar and then say everything that she said in the most feminine voice i could muster, while rubbing my clitty. But tonight, i wanted to see if i could do my sissy edges without watching any of that nasty pornography.

i rubbed my clitty for about 20 minutes, thinking about the nastiest pornographic scenes that could happen to sissy kimmy but really to no avail. Something was just not right. Something was missing. And then i realized that i had grown so attached to my white bra the night before that i needed my bra for my sissy edges. i slipped into my white bra and actually managed to hook on the bra from the back! i was pretty impressed with my increased feminine flexibility.

I stuffed my two white shirts into the 36c cups and resumed rubbing my clitty. Wow, it didn't take me very long to get to the edge at all. i think what drove me crazy was just that i was the complete sissy kimmy again. And while rubbing myself, i gave soft but high pitched moans of pleasure like how a lady would while pleasuring herself. One really exciting thing was arching my back, which is typically seen when a lady is extremely aroused or about to orgasm. I arched my back and made my breasts look even bigger! i was so excited with my seemingly larger breasts that i completed all my 7 edges over a rather short period of time.

Sexy sissy kimmy needs her full outfit every night! Panties alone, are no longer sufficient..

Toughest night so far..

Last night, i was the happiest sissy ever! Lady Anne was in the room with me when i first tried on my pretty lingerie. i started off with the lacey nude colored panties and they looked great! The fabric was so thin that i could see my clitty through my panties. Oh and not to mention the pretty lacey flowers all over my panties! I felt so sexy wearing them.

Next was my white bra. *giggles* i needed some advice from the chatroom before i could put it on. Apparently, i didnt have the flexibility to put it on the feminine way but i'll work on that. i hooked on my bra and slipped my arms through the bra straps and to finish it off, i stuffed a white shirt into each cup. Wow, i looked so pretty with my delicious 36c tits; they were just the right size for my 6' frame.

And then i slipped out of my lacey panties to put on my silky thong. Oh god, i have never felt something this amazing in my life. i literally cannot stay soft in my thong. The thong feels so smooth and every time i make a tiny motion, the thong stimulates my clitty making it rock hard again. And i love how the fabric just goes between my asscheeks! Not only it feels good, it also reveals my pretty butt!

i looked in the mirror and all i saw was a pretty little princess! im so happy that my purchases worked out fine eventually! Even as i write this post, i am still in my stuffed white bra and wildberry silk thong. i love my cute lingerie so much!!

Lady Anne wanted me to put on my thong for the whole of today. I really wanted to please Her but i had an important event in the later half of the day so i asked if i could just wear them to sleep and put it on for half a day today. Worst mistake ever! i did get up early from my hardon as usual but i got up at 2.30am!! i tried going back to sleep for the rest of the night but to no avail. The largest amount of contiguous sleep i had was 20 minutes. Then i would wake up, involuntarily humping my bed or my extra pillow. I don't think i have felt this horny ever!

i don't know how much longer i can last in this state. Doing 7 edges a day and sleeping in my silky thong is making me more and more aroused each day. i thought that i would eventually plateau but no, my level of arousal has no boundaries.

Oh and i almost forgot the most important part of the night! My curiosity eventually made me ask Her if She enjoyed the night. She said that she was wet and that She needed to wash Her panties more often because of ballsfull's game as well as O/our feminization sessions. i think that was another one of the main contributing factors to my arousal last night. i felt so happy that She was excited from O/our chats and i really hope that i can carry on pleasing Her!